when the wind blows your ball out
Most days I'm just looking to keep myself sane.
and here we are again. A day where I want everything to change. Were I just want things to change. To leave it all behind me and move on. but I can’t keep running away. When I came to texas I wanted a new start. Everything to be perfect. I would excel in school. I would get away from my past. but it never left. My past I was trying tio run away from when it was always me running away from myself. I am like a mirror. I reflect whatever I want people to see. For the longest time I thought I was lost, that I would never follow Dr. Moro’s advice and get to “know thyself” but I think the truth is that I have always known who I am. I hid away from the ttruth. The truth that at the end of the day I am so ugly on the inside. I am selfish, and mean, and I judge people, and I think I despise hypocrties so much because Ive had to come face toface with the truth. That in my life I am the biggest one. Why do I care so much of wat other people think of me. It will never change anything. I NEEED TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY. I want to try.. I don’t want to be the monster that I am. I want to be a glass house, not a mirror. What people is really whats going on. I want my life to be different, I made to BE more, DO more.